..i NEED sleep!..

my insomnia is attacking again.for how many days now, ive been suffering from it.no matter how i want to sleep, i simply cant.ive been doing every single thing that i can just for me to drowse off.and all has failed.DAMN!.whenever i go to bed, it takes me about 3 hours to finally sleep.tossing and rolling in my bed with my puffy eyes for how many hours totally sucks.its just so hard being an insomniac.=/.darn.i have had insomnia since forever.or maybe not.but for as long as i can remember, ive always had it.it just goes away after sometime (especially during school days).then it goes back just like that.i even remember one incident wherein i already slept at 4 am and had to wake up at 5 cause it was a school day.=/.weird.imagine sleeping at 4 am when i was in bed at 8 pm?!.what have i been doing the whole time in my bed?!.what's weirder is that, that whole day, i didnt even feel sleepy!.=0.beat that!.but really, i HATE it!.i seriously need to get more sleep.have i been thinking too much about some things?!.i dont know.i hope not.ive been bothered by this little(?) thing recently.and i dont like it.=/.okay, ill keep my mouth shut.but for now, all i wish for is a goodnight's sleep.oh, dont forget a nice dream!(with japoy in it.hihi).that would be great, wouldnt it?!.=).i hope i can sleep well tonight.=)

Why doesn't he see me in this empty room? don't you see what you're doing to me? cant you see i've been dealt by this, dealt by you? i guess i'll always do. i try to shut them, blurring this picture from my head but even in the dark, you are there. i try to love you even if you won't..-Jillan by Spongecola