i just realized

I just realized how blessed I really am. I learned that all of my problems which already seem too heavy for me are nothing compared to what others have. Awhile ago, I watched Wowowee and there were these kids who gathers garbage in order to have money. One of them even worked for his whole family since his parents doesn't have work. I just realized that I am blessed that food is not my problem when there others still need to think how they can eat for the next day. I realized how blessed I am that education is not a problem when there are those kids wanting to have education but unfortunately, they can't. I realized that despite all my problems, I still am so blessed. Think about it, we are all blessed in so many ways and we don't even notice it. We just realize these things when we see our lives better than others.

i'm turning insane

Okay, I've been memorizing 207 countries around the world and their fondly called names and I'm slowly losing my sanity. I've been studying for World History for hours. I still need to study for Geometry, (though I did start na) Arts, (the heck?!) and Music. Sheesh!!! I'm going to need sugar...sugar rush! I'm already feeling sleepy and no, I CAN'T sleep early! I will only sleep after I am done with this whole studying thing. Darn! Oh heck, I hope I can answer the exams smoothly tomorrow, if you know what I mean. I am totally, totally scared for tomorrow's exams. Please pray for me. :)

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Happy? Uhh, yeah, sure (if that's what it should be). For me? No. Damn, ganito ba talaga 'toh? Halimbawa ay nakahanap ka ng magandang uri ng kabibe sa tabing dagat. Kinuha mo ito at hinawakan sa iyong mga kamay. Masaya ka na...sana. Pano ka magiging masaya kung 'yung kabibe na hawak mo sa kamay mo na akala mo ay hindi mawawala ay unti-unti na palang dumulas sa at pag-tingin mo, wala na pala? Tapos anong gagawin mo? Sasabihin mong kukuha ka na lang ng bagong kabibe. Ngunit habang naglalakad ka palayo naisip mo na baka hindi ka na makahanap ng mas gaganda pa sa kabibe mo. Isa pa, paglingon mo, ang kabibeng perpekto para sa iyo ay tinatapak-tapakan lang ng iba. Sinubukan mong balikan ang kabibe ngunit pag dating mo ay may nakapulot na nito. Aalis ka na sana ulit nang biglang iniwan ng taong nakadampot nito ang kabibe. Ano ang gagawin mo? Syempre, babalikan mo ito ulit at hahawakan sa iyong mga kamay. Gustong-gusto mo na hawakan ito ng mahigpit upang hindi na ito muling mahulog pa at upang maka-iwas na rin sa pananapak ng mga tao. Ngunit kaya mo bang higpitan ang hawak dito? Hindi, dahil alam mong masakit sa kamay kapag hinawakan mo ng napaka higpit ang kabibe. Isa pa, baka dahil sa pagkakahigpit sa hawak ay lalo itong mahulog. Ang tanong, kapag nahulog ba ulit ang kabibe ay babalikan mo pa? O hahayaan mo na lang ito sa may dalampasigan dahil alam mong doon naman siya nararapat? Pasensya na kung masyado akong matalinhaga. :)