like?!

No, I don't. I don't just simply like. Which makes it suck. I wish I just liked. Do I make any sense?! I know I don't.

the guts

And I thought I had it. But I was wrong. I don't have the guts, I don't. How harder can this get?! Sheesh, why does it have to be this way?! I didn't want this in the first place, or maybe I did. Yes, maybe I did, but only a part of it. Maybe 1/4 of it?! But hell, didn't want the remaining 3/4! This isn't what I exactly wanted. It had a lot of adjustments than I expected, more like, it's been altered too much it doesn't seem like this is what I've asked for. No, this isn't what I've asked for, not really. I guess you can't get everything the way you want it to be. Seriously, I already want to raise the white flag. But wait, maybe I can't raise the white flag after all. How can I give up on a fight that has never started and I know will never start? How can you fight for something when it doesn't like to be fought for? It's like holding on to something with nothing to hold on to. Ironic? Hard.