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Isn't it frustrating when you find out that the only thing you've been holding on to all this time has never been in your hands right from the very start?! That that certain thing is just in you mind and it isn't true, more like you've been imagining it. Yeah, I just figured that out last night. Who am I kidding?! And you know how it feels?! It feels like crap. Now what's left with me? Nothing. Totally NOTHING. As in N-O-T-H-I-N-G. And what am I supposed to do?! Damn it. And I thought things were just in its worst situation. But no, if there's something such as worst than worst, it would have to be this. Isn't life so wonderful?! (sarcasm)...