super stress

This week is nothing but stress week. I feel so tired! It's been so busy. The lessons are hard, there are activities for almost every subject and there are seatworks and quizzes which are sometimes surprise ones. Tomorrow there will be the sabayang pagbigkas for Filipino. We will also have quizzes in Health and Computer. Karel and I still don't have topics for our Physics IP. I'm far from done with my Mathfolio. We still don't have the freaking dance for PE. I'm not yet done with my modern art thinng and the essay which explains my work. God, I have a lot to do! It's very very stressful!

i hate love

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life. You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”

Got this one from a site which I forgot. I found it nice. And its' true. Why is it that when you fall in love, you fall in love with one stupid person who's no different from any other stupid person. But yes, your heart suddenly beats faster, you trip, then you fall. Then suddenly, this stupid person is for you, no longer a stupid person. He's suddenly this someone who seems so intelligent who does no wrong. He suddenly becomes perfect. And yes, if your stupid heart doesn't stop beating but his freaking heart just tells him that you're only another stupid person for him, then you get that one of a kind pain which you feel in your heart. Then you blame your stupid heart for falling for him. But see, nothing happens. Your damn heart continues to fall and you can't do anything about it. Until the time comes that your heart gets tired. Damn love. You just got to hate love.

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Sana nagtanong ka lang
Kung 'di mo lang alam
Sana'y nagtanong ka lang
Kung 'di mo lang alam
Ako'y iyong nasaktan
Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman
Hindi mo lang alam

Ooooh. Nice song. Para sa mga manhid. haha tsk tsk. 'Di mo lang alam ako'y iyong nasaktan. Sana'y nagtanong ka lang. Sa bagay, manhid nga eh, walang pakialam. May mga tao talagang sadyang manhid na kahit anong pahalata mo, wala pa rin. Minsan nga nakapagtataka, manhid ba talaga o sadyang ayaw lang tingnan? Bato. Bato ka kasi. haha