..more confusion, my mind's stressed..

im in a state of confusion.whom to choose?!.my mom or my dad?!.okay, i already chose my mom over my dad.BUT...well, ill be going with my mom to the US this summer and i have this fear that they wont let us come back here.which of course, would totally suck.=(. but my mom told us that we are coming back.we should.SHOULD.hay, i dont know how im supposed to feel about these things.=/.i dont know what im supposed to do.im lost and confused.nga pala, *thanx ulet kay nardo at karel!*.
yep, nagdrama nanaman ako.can i help it?!.i even felt like breaking down awhile ago!.sheesh!.i think my life story can already be featured in Maalaala Mo Kaya or Magpakailanman.
im not okay.NOT.so anyway, i think one thing to cheer me up is that i bought chucks awhile ago!.yey!.=).i was supposed to buy futsal shoes but bought chucks instead.=).
haha.i bargained for it.=).weee!.=).its pastel blue and yellow.uhmm, its like this: just that the outer one is blue and the inner one is yellow.=).its really cute!.=).oh yeah, and we already bought the tickets for rivermaya and kitchie's concert!.=).the 600 pesos were already sold out so we bought the 800 ones instead.its really near the stage.yey!!.=D.i guess these would somehow make me happy.=).even just a little.=).okay, karel texted me a quote and it's really nice.it goes.."Life aint easy i know.there are pains.pero, if ever youll fall because of hurt, dito lang ako ha?!.get some strength from me.weak din ako, pero kakayanin ko..para sayo.=)."thanks karel!.=).kaya mahal kita eh!.=).and here's another one my mom sent me.it came from tita cynthia."God will meet us where we are.he can be very tender to you if you need an embrace.he can be terribly awesome when you need a miracle.he can be painfully quiet when he wants you to trust him.he will be what you NEED him to be NOT what you WANT him to be.in your every need, BELIEVE THAT GOD KNOWS ABOUT IT MORE THAN YOU DO. so, let him meet you where you are and let him love you right there."