..happy birthday to rach!!=).

*happy birthday rach!!!*.=).yihee 16 na siya!!.=).and your finally getting your driver's liscense, right?!.nice!.=).anyway,ive been straining my eyes on my pc today, fixing my blog.yeah, i did put some games and stuff to make my site more fun and interactive.=).awhile ago, we had our recognition and i got the math and science club award (more like the "most outstanding club member" thing for the math and science club).which seems really weird to me since i really dont like my club.haha ^.^.but yeah, ive been participating.it says "for showing active participation and enthusiasm in the activities....etc".=).and i also got my merit.=).weee!!.yeah boi!.=).but i know that merit wasnt my best.i became too lazy last school year.=/.maybe i could have gotten higher grades (or maybe even make it to third honor.^.^) if i just did study hard.=).maybe next year.if i still am here.which reminds me, i still have not decided whether to stay in US or go back here.it really bothers me a lot.its what's on my mind everytime.oh well, as i said, let GOD show me the right decision.=).so there.this day's practically busy.well, i think so.=).and because of what im going through right now, i was able to write a poem.=).here goes...
AFTER ALL
crying inside
hurt, bleeding
wounded heart
lost soul
confused, rattled
mistakes--
unforgotten, unforgiven
wandering mind
puzzled, asking
what have i done?
or rather,
what have YOU done?
agonizing pains
you have caused me
now im broken,
shattered
picking myself up again
making myself
whole, complete
but now you come back
and after all
what you did
here i am...again
my heart screaming,
help me, im falling!
uhmm, what do you think?.i know its not really connected with me or anything but...i dunno, these are my emotions right now.=)