confused and frustrated

I had a chat with Mikee earlier and she told me she was confused of all our schoolworks. Believe me, if she's confused then I'm more confused and frustrated as well. I mean, Mikee's right, it's our Christmas break which doesn't even feel like a break. There's just too much stuff to do and I don't know where to start. I've never been so disorganized! Argh! I'm hating it! And yes, I think I'm actually failing Geom! Damn it! I have a really, really low score on my long test and my quizzes are low too. And no, I am not being sarcastic. The only way to make up is to mkae good on my periodical test (which would seem impossible. grr). Oh and not to mention that my Chem's doing bad too. God, what is wrong with me?! I've been too lazy this past month. I know I have to make up for the mess I've done. I don't know why but sometimes, I just find myself getting tired from all the expectations I have to meet (and they're really high). But then, I myself get frustrated when I don't do my best and I know I have not been doing my best. I want to be the organized me again. I want to be the what-used-to-be-responsible me. I am so fucked up. pssss. Never mind. I know I'll get over this. I'm being stupid and this has to stop. God, help me.

on the brighter side

I've been seeing Japoy! haha Of course not personally but I've been seeing him on certain shows. haha I saw him on Badminton Extreme the other day. Yeahboi! He showed his kicks and he was just so good at it! Then he played badminton with the Asuncions (of course he had no make up). He was sweaty and since he had no make up, you could see his pimples. haha But I don't care, he's still cute for me. haha Anyway, I wish I could watch him on more shows. harhar

my wish

I know, it's a bit too late for my wish list but better late than never, right? Actually, I don't have any wish list but I do have a wish. Only one wish which I know that if granted a lot of things would change for the better. I wish that everyone will learn to love each other. I know, it sounds cliche. But then, believe it or not, this is my wish. It seems simple but why is it so hard to do? This Christmas has been different from all my other Christmases. It's this Christmas when I just didn't feel the Christmas spirit. There's just too much going on around me. I'm just so sick and tired of all these stupid stories I here everywhere. God, I'd want them to stop for a second and start appreciating Jesus' birth for Heaven's sake! Anyway, so much for that. I just think that our world really lacks love. If there's love, would there be children longing for love and attention? If there's love, would there be broken relationships? If there's love, would people be so diverse? You know, we just tend to close our hearts at times. Every single one of us makes a barrier in our hearts and we only choose who we let in. The thing is, we have to show love for everyone. We have to let everyone in our hearts and love them. Who knows, maybe that one person whom we chose to close our hearts to is that same person who just needs a little hug to make him/her happy? There's too much love we can give and let's make the best out of it by giving it to each and every person on earth. I hope that we would learn to love everyone not just on Christmas day but everyday in our lives. Alright?!

Let's start giving love and the love which will be reciprocated to us will be more than what we have given.