i'm tired

I'm so tired. I've been tired the past few dyas, and especially today. I don't know. I have to worry about a lot of things. The ABS presentation, the family day dance and the employee's day. awww. Sheesh!

sorry

Sorry if I haven't been blogging. I'm not on a hiatus. It's just that our pc has spyware and I still need to go to the net shop to be able to blog. So there. You won't be hearing so much from me in a while. Oh yeah, Pacquiao won!

tsk tsk

You would only know the importance of something when it's gone.

This is a tribute to my scientific calculator which got lost over the Christmas break.

My calcu and I have been together for 4 years, since grade 7. I remember the first time I took hold of it. I didn't know we would become so close with each other. I was in grade 7 when we first met each other. Since then, it helped me with my calculations. It's been there for me through hell and back. We've been through the toughest Algebra, Geometry and Chemistry problems. We've shared sadness when we would fail a test. But it wasn't only there for me during the saddest part of my problems with numbers. It's also been there for me when I was happy. Although we've faced the toughest equations, formulas, postulates and theorems, we've also faced the easiest additions, subtractions, muliplications and divisions. It was also there for me in my happiest times when I would pass and my Algebra and Geometry, especially when I would get high grades.

It wasn't easy for me when I found out that my calcu suddenly left me. Why did it have to go now? Now that I'm attached to it? Yes, I already bought a new one. But then again, it still isn't the same as my last one. I'm still hoping that it would be back in my hands again. But I guess that would be impossible. So I have to learn how to let go of it and start bonding with my new one. awwww

finally!

I finally got to watch Japoy in Sports Idol. haha Wala lang, it's been a long time when I last saw him. haha And finally, it's Sunday na tomorrow!!! haha Hmmmm....

Pacquiao vs. Morales

The rematch would be tomorrow. Let's pray for Pacquiao to win. It would be good if he wins. At least we would have one more reason to be a proud Filipino. Quoting Pacquiao, this is not only his fight but the whole Philippine's fight. So let's pray for him, ayt?!

and finally!

Exams are over! Rejoice rejoice! haha No more worries! Oh yeah, I'll worry about my card grades pa pala. awwwww But for now, I'll enjoy first! haha I was stressed out the whole week and I'm glad hell week is over!

.....

I'm so sorry it turned out like this. But I believe that what is happening right now is not my fault. May paninindigan kasi akong tao. Alam ko ang tama at mali at sa pagkakataong 'to, alam ko na lahat ng ginawa ko ay tama. Alam ko ang gagawin ko kapag may mga pangyayaring dapat na ituwid. And I believe that what they are facing now are just consequences of their actions.

We always have to remember that in everything that we would want to do, we must always, always think first. I understand that we are in the phase of our lives where we want to try out new things. We are in a stage where we would like to experiment. But we should also always remember what is right and what is wrong. And I strongly believe that we should always choose the right path. Of course, I also understand that sometimes, we make wrong decisions which may lead to serious consequences. Minsan, sa sobrang kapusukan nating mga kabataan, agad-agad tayong gumagawa ng mga bagay nang hindi man lang pinag-iisipan kaya nga sa huli, napapahamak tayo. But I believe that these consequences are lessons which teach us. Yes, its sounds cliche but it's true. With every mistake that we make, we must always learn something from it. The best lessons which life can teach us are always being taught to us the hard way. Hindi man madaling harapin ang mga pangyayari, hindi ito dapat talikuran. Bagkus, dapat ay harapin ito ng buong tapang tulad ng pagsabak natin ng walang alinlangan sa kamaliang ating nagawa.

I know for a fact that they feel anger for me. Hindi ko itatanggi na nararamdaman ko 'yun. I feel the tension among us when we pass by one another. May karapatan ba silang magalit? Yes, they do. But if they think about it, kasalanan din naman nila. Hindi ako ang gumawa ng kabalbalan, pinanindigan ko lang ang paniniwala ko. Alam ko sa sarili ko na tama ang ginawa ko. Naglakas-loob akong gawin ang alam kong tama at sabihin ang katotohanan kahit na alam kong marami ang magagalit sa akin. Hindi man nila maintindihan ngayon kung bakit ko 'yun ginawa, alam ko balang araw, maiintindihan rin nila ako. One day, they would realize that what I did was also for them. I didn't do this for anything else but for their own good. They must learn their lessons early on para hindi mapariwara ang buhay nila. Pero sa bagay, ano nga naman ang karapatan kong manghimasok ng buhay ng iba, 'di ba? Nagmamalasakit lang naman ako. Yes, believe it or not, I do care for them. Minsan nga iniisip ko kung ano ang magiging future nila. I just think that they have to start straightening their lives.

Ilan kaya silang galit sakin? Alam ko marami. But do I have regrets? No, I don't. I kow, a day would come that they would understand that what I did was also for their own good, or so I hope. If not, then it's their loss that they do not learn from life's lessons.

mushroom!

Parang may lahing mushroom si Igie. Pano ba naman, bigla-biglang sumusulpot. haha Makikita ko na lang, na sa harap ko na siya. haha Ewan.

ACET!

The damn test was so HARD! I felt so damn ignorant and stupid. I think that out of the 90 items in Math, 70 items of it were pure gueses (I shaded most of it with b's and c's). Passing that test would be a miracle. There were 33 rooms for the am session and another 33 for the pm session. Aroind 2000 applicants. Only 70 would be chosen. I know I'm not one of those 70 people. DUH. It was tiring, very, very tiring.

and for the nth time

Our pc crashed. Yeah, what's new?! Sheesh! It's a normal thing. God, I want a new pc. I think I'll have to ask for a new one to replace this - as Jalvin said - ancient pc.

yesterday

I was so so dead tired yesterday. It all started with Geometry, followed by Chemistry and so on. Solving Chem problems are just hard. I'm confused with the formulas and all those sh*t. But anyway, I'm still trying to make up for Geometry. And I'm actually doing good at it. It's a good thing we'll have another long test for Geom. I have to get a high score this time. My Chemistry is not doing good. It's so hard. God, help me. Anyway, after Geom and Chem, I went to 3 meetings yesterday. Then, when I got home, I opened my Geom book, got a paper and a pen and started solving problems until 9 pm. Could you believe I actually did that?! Then, I studied for the ELA long test (which was so hard). I seriously thought my brain wasn't functioning well yesterday. Sheesh.

i got in!

I got in the ABS leadership training! haha I'm so happy! It's for all Benedictine schools. It's going to be for 3 days and 2 nights. Can you imagone how fun that would be?! But, it's going to be hectic. We got our schedules and wow, it's jam packed. How I got in?! A miracle maybe. The class (for those who wanted to join) was asked to write in a 1/4 sheet of paper why they would want to go to the leadership training for only one sentence. I wrote such a nonsense thing. It goes like this: "I want to go to the leadership training because I want to improve on my leadership skills and I think that this would be a great experience for me." While some of my classmates wrote long answers (some even more than 3 sentences), I wrote something which seemed like I didn't think about. Anyway, there was this panel with some teachers and Sr. Edna who decided who would come. There would be 5 delegates from the sophomores and 5 from the juniors. From our class, we are composed of: Kay Abalos, Mica Labiaga, Biney Villanueva, Mela Kanlapan and I. I'm really happy about this whole thing. haha

corrections

Uhm, I got Igie's name spelled wrong. haha It's supposed to be I-G-I-E. With an E at the end. I spelled it without an E. Forgive me for being such a bad speller. haha

finally, we meet

I met Igi (my quince partner, who by the way is just my neighbor) yesterday. Weird as it is, we don't know each other and after 16 years of living with our houses just in front of one another, we meet. haha Am I still making sense? Anyway, I didn't know he was coming because Ms. Duday didn't tell me that she was going to bring Igi yesterday. So we met. Comments?! Uhm, he's madaldal (which is nice because at least I can talk to him). He's actually fun to talk to and he's funny. He stayed here for an hour and a half because he still "watched" my piano lesson. Well, he wasn't watching that much because he was exploring the house. And while he was doing his exploring thing, my lola saw him. haha Funny. I think my lola actually said, "sino ka?". haha He introduced himself naman. hehe What else?! Basta! It was okay. We didn't get to talk so much though. But, it's cool. haha Sheesh, I can't believe I'm being careful with my comments about him. He just might you know, see this blog one day and...ah basta! haha

anonymous

Guess what?! Anonymous and I were THISCLOSE awhile ago! haha And I thought he didn't attend mass awhile ago. haha So whie we were going out, he was going in (why kaya?!) and then *poof* we went past each other and we were THISCLOSE. haha Okay, I know, babaw. haha He was wearing: a blue shirt which has Guess printed in white and shorts. Again. haha I didn't notice his shoes. I was too buse looking at him. I was actually forcing myself not to smile or look at him too much because he might notice me like the first time I saw him. So I was passing by him acting as if I did not see him but deep inside, I wanted to scream. haha WOOHOO!

Oh Yael, Yael

He was so funny in Game Ka Na Ba. haha You could tell he was nervous. He looked different. Parang naninigas siya. haha I was laughing so hard. But I was impressed. He's intelligent. He answered the questions about Shakespeare and stuff. Well, of course, he's taking up AB Literature. But still, I think he's intelligent and handsome. haha

E-heads still rocks!

I watched ASAP Fanatic awhile ago and I got to know a lot of things a bout Eheads. Could you imagine that one of their albums, Cutterpillow, became platinum after only 2 days?! Imagine that! After 2 days?! I was in awe when I read that. What the?! haha Anyway, Eheads still rocks! Astig kayo!

life's best

Got sick the other day. Was absent yesterday. Nice to know that 6 people bothered to ask why I was absent. Failed my Geom long test. As I've expected. And I was supposed to be in the math quiz bee. YEAH, RIGHT. Can anything be more ironic than that?! Squeezed my brain for the Social long test but to no avail. Sheesh, my life just gets better and better.

Wake Up!

Why is it that people would only want to think of themselves and what good things can do for them without thinking that more people would be hurt? I am very disappointed with Cathay. It's the company which built (and is still currently developing) South Forbes. Why? They would want to get Baranggay Inchican's lands to build their luxurious houses. Pfrt. These Inchican people already gave their lands where they farm to South Forbes and now all they have are their homes and Cathay still wants to get it from them. Wow, that's such a nice thing to do for your countrymen. NOT. I understand that Cathay just wants to have a nice place for their village. It is South FORBES. Duh. Where would you see FORBES beside some baranggay which some would even call squatter's area. See? See how we think?! Baluktot na ang utak ng mga tao. They keep on thinking about their own interests. Why can't they see these people who are in need of their houses? They just want a place to live in. God, I'm sure that people who would buy houses and live in South Forbes will live in beautiful houses. But these people from Inchican, they do not want beautiful houses. They aren't even asking for mansions or palaces to live in. They just want to keep their rights as the owners of their lands and houses. 'Di ba nila alam na itong mga taong 'to na tinatawag nilang squatter ay baka mas tao pa sa kanila? What does money do? It doesn't make you any different from these Inchican people if you have money and all the riches in the world. They're even better than you. They know how to be happy even with small things. They know how to thank people and know how to care. Know what, I think that the best thing to do is for Cathay to develop Inchican's lands but not to take it away from them. Why don't they try to also build a place for these people? They would make their place more beautiful without hurting anyone. Plus, they would be able to help and make people happy. I don't know with Cathay but they should try looking at what they're doing. One day, they'll realize how stupid they are if they continue what they have planned. Pfrt. I just wish that they make the best decision and that God guides them.

Let's pray for Baranggay Inchican.

Oh yeah, sorry for the harsh words.

Kay Tinay tayo!

Let's follow Tinay's example. In case you haven't heard of her, she's the girl who's been all around tv and radio stations because of her honesty. She got some 300,000 and returned it to the company who owned it. In their situation in life, she could have kept the money but decided to return it. Now, she's been blessed with a lot of things. This is what we should follow. It's so good to know that there are still parents who teach their kids the right thing to do. I salute you! God would reward you more for what you have done.

bye bye 2005!

Last 2005 was a not-so-good-yet-not-that-bad year for me. I have to admit that the first months were tough. With the separation of my parents and all the things which came with it, it was difficult. Last year was the year I cried the most (although you could still count those with your fingers). haha But it was also last year where I learned a lot of things. And they are:

Things I learned last 2005:

1. I learned that crying is a good way of releasing all the pains I have inside; too bad I still don't cry that much. haha

2. I learned that I just have to accept what life brings me and move on because the world just won't stop spinning for me.

3. I learned that everything (yes, EVERYTHING) can still be a happy ending depending on how I see it.

4. I learned that there will be lots of challenges which will go my way and will test in what I believe in and stand for.

5. I learned how to love and value people around me more.

6. I learned how to let go of certain things and people whom we need to let go of.

7. I learned that I can reach my goals if I really want to.

8. I learned that I have friends whom I can turn to when I need them.

9. I learned about what they mean when they say "I am in love" and "I am loveless".
(I used to ask myself how it could possibly be. haha)

10. I learned that I HATE Math more than I thought I hated it.

I learned quite a lot, huh?! Actually, I think I learned more than that but for now, this is only what I can think of. Aside from these things which I've learned, I also found myself accomplishing lots of things which are:

Accomplishments last 2005

1. I've taught my grade 2 students and I find myself happy when I do it.

2. I finished Julius Caesar and actually found myself liking the story.

3. I've helped kids in the outreach program we had.

4. I went to Hale's gigs and saw them twice! I also saw Spongecola and Rivermaya in
flesh! Yay! haha

5. I went to 3 concerts. Wow.

6. I became class president. (Wait, is this an accomplishment?!)

7. I've been surviving my Geom and Chem classes (although I know I have low grades).

8. I was one of the 5 people who was chosen for the Ateneo Junior Camp (and the test
is coming near).

9. I cried lots of times (well, at least I think it's a lot. haha) You would rarely
see me cry.

10. I got a quincinera partner! Oh yeah!

Anyway, I have lots more but that's ten of what I've accomplished which I'm really proud of! haha

Happy New Year to everyone! My 2005 wouldn't have been complete without all of you! God bless!

the new year

How was my New Year?! Okay, let's start from New Year's eve. It started out pretty well. We went to mass (and I saw Anonymous in a blue checkered polo and maong pants) which made my New Year. haha Anyway, after the mass, we went home but it was still early so did not eat media noche right away. I went online and greeted people happy New Year. Then, we ate na. While we were waiting for 12 midnight, I thought of going to our room and spend my New Year there. I so thought it was going to be a lame one. Oh yeah, as if Meralco read my mind. Suddenly, there were no lights. There was a black out. What a nice way of spending New Year! So we went outside the house (but still inside. Uh, you know what I mean. Don't you?!) Anyway, So we were outside the house with one candle and with my phone used as a flaslight with all the noise (as in super lakas na mga paputok! I thought I was going to have some heart attack!) and the smoke. Eeek! But when 12 midnight came, there was more noise and more fireworks and firecrackers. But I liked the fireworks part. There were lots of them (And I thought wala ng pera ang mga tao). There were fireworks everywhere I didn't know where to look. haha Seriously! There were fireworks in front of me and at my left and at my right. So there. Electricity only came back at around 1 am.

hmmm

I bought a pair of birkenstock. 3600 pesos. awwww