dagdag lang..

I just read Chai's and Mela's blog. Gusto kontrahin 'yung iba nilang sinabi. Dahil para sakin, hindi, hindi isang malaking katangahan ang mahalin mo ang isang tao ng buong puso. Kapag nagmahal ka, hindi naman maaari na hindi buong puso ang ibibigay mo dahil kung hindi, hindi ito tunay na pagmamahal. Ang tunay na pagmamahal ay ibinibigay ang lahat. Sinasakripisyo ang maraming bagay at isinusugal ang posibilidad na maaari kang masaktan. Sabihin mo, matatawag mo bang pagmamahal kapag 'di mo binigay ang buong puso mo? Tuwing nagmamahal tayo, binibigay natin ang buong puso natin. Kahit na sabihin mong ilang bese ka pa nasaktan at kahit pa parang nagka watak-watak na 'yang pusong 'yan, walang mawawalang parte diyan at mabubuo at mabubuo pa rin 'yan. Hindi totoong walang matitira sa'yo kapag minahal mo ang isang tao ng buong puso. Dahil ang puso, kahit sino ang mahalin, kahit sarili mo pa 'yan, ay lahat binibigyan ng 100 porsyento. Hindi naman kailangan hatiin ang puso. Maaari ka namang magmahal ng maraming tao, kahit ang buong mundo pa, na ang bawat tao ay mamahalin mo ng buo. Ang pagmamahal ay binibigay ng buong puso. At kahit na nasaktan ka ng sobra-sobra dahil sa pagmamahal mo sa isang tao, eh ano naman?! Hindi pa rin naman iyon katangahan. Nagmahal ka, masama ba?! Kaya ka nasaktan ay minahal mo siya ng buong puso at kahit na nasaktan ka niya, isipin mo na lang, kung 'di mo siya minahal at di ka niya nasaktan, matututo ka bang lumaban? Matututo ka bang magmahal? Kung ang iba sinasabi na lahat ay nagiging tanga sa pagmamahal, iba ang sasabihin ko. Walang tanaga pagdating sa pag-ibig. Dahil ang puso ay hindi tanga, nakikita lang nito ang mga mabubuting bagay. Kaya nga ang utak ay kailanman hindi maikukumpara sa puso. Ano ba ang mas gugustuhin mo, ang pusong mapagmahal o ang utak na mapang husga? Ang hindi magmahal ng buong puso ay mas malaking katangahan na magagawa mo sa buhay mo. Maaaring ito na nga ang pinaka malaking katangahan na magagawa mo sa buong buhay mo. Bakit? Dahil hindi mo mararanasan ang tunay na kaligayahan kung hindi mo isusugal 'yang puso mo. Wala namang mawawala. Sa 2 bagay na maaaring mangyari sa'yo: una, ang mahalin pabalik at pangalawa ang masaktan, parehong may mapupulot na aral. Ang magmahal ay hindi katangahan, dapat na pasalamatan natin ang mga taong mahal natin kahit gaano pa nila tayo saktan. Dahil sa kanila, naramdaman natin ang pagmamahal at natuto tayong tumayo matapos madapa. Sa buhay na ito, isa lang ang sigurado, magmamahal at magmamahal ka kahit ano ang gawin mo. At sa tuwing magmamahal ka, ibigay mo ang isang daang porsyento dahil baka hindi mo alam na ang taong pag-aalayan mo nito ay ang taong magmamahal din sa'yo ng buong puso niya.

go philippines!

Have I told you how much I love the Philippines?! I love this country so much! I don't care what other countries think of our country but what I can say is that, this country is the best country for me. It's so sad to see that there are Filipinos who do not love their country. It's so sad to know that there are Filipinos who are ashamed that they are one. Anyway, I'm so proud of our athletes! They already have 16 gold medals! See?! See hoe we can be so good at things when we just concentrate on it?! Filipinos are really good by nature. :) Let's continue to support our athletes! :) Oh yeah, Japoy's next match is on November 30. Also support him! :)

what is wrong with these people?!

We had this recollection thing last Friday and we learned about these 6 African men who raped this 9 month old baby. What the hell?! What were they thinking?! Insane people! And guess what?! They won't be put to court because it has something to do with African tradition. Hello people, wake up! A 9 month old baby was raped and the suspects won't go to jail?! Where's justice?! Something must be done regarding this. I really feel sorry for the baby. She was not even given the chance to live. Of course, she died. Let's give her justice please.

please pray for me

Please pray for me that I may be included in our top 5. I need it for the Ateneo thing. The top 5 will have the chance to go Ateneo this summer and its like having the chance to experience college life. Also, there will be a chance of scholarship. :) Okay, I really want to go to La Salle but hey, it's worth a try. So please, please, pray for me. I really need it now. :) Thank you. :)

jaded
Made this one for the class paper. Read on.

Jaded

There I was
I stood
waiting.
For a moment,
I thought
I had you
figured out
and thought
you felt
the same way
for me.
And now
I'm deeply cut
bleeding myself dry
under the
falling rain.
I'm still here
just in case
you'd still care

.....

Naisip ko lang, maraming mahirap at madali sa mundo. Madaling maghintay pero mahirap maghintay sa wala. Madali ang umasa at mangarap pero mahirap umasa lalo na at wala namang dapat asahan pa. Madaling kumapit sa isang bagay na kung ito ay nais din kumapit sa iyo ngunit mahirap kumapit sa isang bagay na kailanma'y hindi naging sa iyo. Madaling lumimot kapag walang halaga ang bagay sa'yo subalit mahirap limutin ang isang bagay kung ito ang nakapagbibigay saya sa buhay mo at lalo pa kung ito na ang dahilan ng buhay mo. Madali ipaglaban ang nararamdaman kung ang ipinaglalaban mo ay ganun din ang pakiramdam sa'yo pero mahirap ipaglaban ang nararamdaman kapag wala naman talagang laban na naumpisahan. Madaling maging matalino pero mahirap iwasan ang pagiging tanga pagdating sa taong mahal mo. Madaling magmahal pero mahirap mahalin ang isang taong 'di ka naman mahal. Madaling sabihing kakalimutan mo na siya pero mahirap gawin dahil mas lalo mo siyang minamahal. Wala lang, ang dali lang naman ng buhay 'di ba?! Pero nagiging mahirap. Pfrt. Buhay nga naman ng tao. Malabo pero malinaw. Ang buhay ng tao ay isang malaking balintunay. Minsan, kung sino pa ang nagbibigay kahulugan sa buhay mo ay siya pa mismo ang magbibigay sakit diyan sa puso mo. Tsk tsk. Ang drama ng buhay pero masaya.

movie extravaganza

Had to go to school to watch this movie extravaganze thing. I was there since 3 pm and watched 2 movies. One was New York Minute (which stars the Olsen twins) and the other one was The Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants. I should say they were good movies. I liked The Sisterhood's story. Anyway, I only went there 'coz of the reaction paper we were asked to do. It was a requirement. So yeah, I was like forced to watch but good thing the movies were good. This thing was supposed to promote the school but I was just wondering...we were all from St. Scho so how would others know about us? Oh well...whatever. It's their problem and not mine.

pfrt

I waited but got disappointed. I was hoping I'd get even just one stupid message. Duh! I should have known.

on the brighter side

...I might have a partner! Yipee! Ms. Duday will ask 3 guys she knows. haha She'll ask Igi (how do you spell his name?!). The guy who lives near us and who studies in Southridge. She'll also ask Miguel, the guy who plays badminton and used to study in San Beda Alabang and Jhong, the guy she used to teach piano who studies at DLSU-C. Anyway, she said one of them is bagay for me. hehe But I'm not telling who he is. :) harhar :)

oh, finally!

I am ablt to blog again! Yay! Guess why I haven't been blogging. Do you really need to guess? Yeah, our pc caught some stupid virus. psss. Anyway, there's been a hell lot of things going on since last Sunday. And yes, I'll give a blow by blow account of what happened these past few days. :) Okay, to start off, Sunday was such a great, great day for me! :) It started really well...know why?! I saw my crush! haha The guy whom I do not know of (no, not even his name) and I was so ecstatic to see him! haha Talk about being lucky. Anyway, after that, we went to Learning Links because there was this futsal tournament for our 12 and under kids. Well, we didn't really have a coach so we coached the kids. It was so fun! haha We were shouting for instruction. (But i don't think they heard us when they were playing.haha) Anyway, there were 6 of us who coaches them. Me, Karel, Fides, Kuya Mich, Karel's dad (whom the referee thought was our real coach), and CDBS' coach (no, not the coach Arman guy, the other one.hehe). I had to say that they were really good considering that they had no subsitutes, they had no coach, they were only formed the week before and they never got to practice together. They were actually good at it. :) And NO, WE DON'T SUCK. Hey, what about you guys who have been training since June and still doesn't know how to kick off, huh? You guys suck more than we do. haha Okay, I'll stop. haha Then Monday came...what did we do? Nothing. Tuesday and Wednesday was our ABSAT. Half day ABSAT, half day classes. Yesterday was my birthday! :) Oh yeah, I was so happy because even the Inchican kids greeted me a Happy Birthday without me telling them that it was my birthday. haha They found out from someone else. hihi :) Yesterday, I was full of hugs from these kids. Awwww, they're really sweet! :) And today, we really had nothing to do. Classes in the morning and practices in the afternoon. Tomorrow, we don't have classes but we need to go to school. Can you sense that we have not been doing too much these past few days? haha And I'm liking it! :) Oh yeah, cards out tomorrow! Start praying. haha :)

maybe...

Maybe it's better of that way. I'm not going to make things more difficult and complicated for me. I'll stop if I have to. No, this is what I want. I'm sick and tired of it.

quotes

Reading quotes. I dont know why. I'm feeling kinda mushy today. haha Read on.

EMMA: You know what I can't figure out? I can't figure out what's worse. Having to know every single detail about your desperate love for some other woman or having to know that you obviously never came close to feeling the same way about me. ~ Alex And Emma

No matter how many times I tell you she’ll break your heart or how many times she does it, you’ll never give up. Why, you ask? Because you love her. ~ Great Expectations

The first time you fall in love, it changes your life forever. And no matter how hard you try, the feeling never goes away. ~ The Notebook

LANA: The only thing that keeps hurting me is you. ~ Smallville

Is it possible to be just friends with someone I have these sort of non-moderate feelings for? Or am I doomed forever to just be in love and ultimately significantly hurt? ~ Felicity

One day, you look at the person and see more than you did the day before, like a switch was flickered somewhere. And the person who was just a friend is suddenly the only person you can imagine yourself with. ~ X Files

JOEY: How can you assume to be friends with someone when all you think about when you look at him is how much more you really want? ~ Dawson’s Creek

PACEY: If two people are meant for each other, it doesn’t mean that they are meant for each other now. ~ Dawson’s Creek

I like Pacey's quote. Yeah, tha last one. hehe :) Pero parang quote 'yan sa mga taong ASA. haha Sheesh! Anyway...whatever!

we've made up and we're okay...

...I guess. I mean, you can't just go back to what-used-to-be just in a snap right? So yeah, I made her promise that she'll try to stop being childish and act her age. She said yes. Let's see what happens next. I just hope she doesn't forget her word.

e-vat

I know I've been complaining about e-vat before it was imposed but now, I change my stand. I mean, the economy is getting better. Although of course, it's just a little better as of now. But if this continues, I'm sure our country will make it through. I mean, what is with other people that they still keep on protesting against e-vat? Can't they see how their country is slowly progressing? They should think positively. Really, what they ought to be doing is do their work and help the country than do all sorts of protests. Let's just hope that all the money we pay for th government will be used wisely and not for their own interests. Let's just hope for the best. At least the government is doing something right. :)

bakit ba?!

Bakit nga ba 'pag mahal mo, gusto mo, o crush mo ang isang tao, lahat na lang ng ginagawa niya at sinasabi niya ay nakikita mo? 'Yung tipong may dahilan lahat para sa'yo. 'Yung binibigyan mo ng dahilan. Lahat importante sa'yo. Bakit nga ba? Ang labo noh?! Tulad na lang kunwari 'pag nasabihan ka ng take care with a smiley pa sa dulo, para sa'yo malaking bagay na pero kung iisipin, take care lang naman 'yun at malamang wala lang sa kanya 'yun. Malamang din na sinasabi niya 'yun kahit sa ibang tao. Pero syempre para sa'yo, espesyal 'yun. Tama 'di ba?! Hmmm..bakit nga kaya?! Minsan dahil dito, nagkakaroon pa ng mga maling akala. Akala mo gusto ka rin niya pero 'di naman pala. Siguro kahit nga tingnan ka lang ng crush mo eh aakalain mong baka may gusto na siya sa'yo. Tapos 'yun pala napalingon lang siya, baka nga 'di ka pa nakita eh. Buhay nga naman ng tao. haha :) Wala lang, naisip ko lang naman. :)

Una

Una
Spongecola

muli namang umihip sa akin
ang hangin ng pagiisa
liwanag kang dagling sumilaw
sa aking mga mata

linilingon, sinusundan
dumadalas ang minsan
ika'y nariyan, abot tanaw
kahit walang dahilan

maiiwasan ba
ang bawat sandaling ika'y laman ng isip ko
(maiiwasan bang)
ngayo'y lilipas ng hindi kita nasisilayan
(magkamali sa'yo)
nararapat bang pigilan ang damdamin na
(maiiwasan bang)
lalong mahulog sa iyo

walang maitutulad sa sumpang iyong linikha
putulin man ang tali ay sadyang walang kawala

sa pagkaakit, at di paglapit
nananalangin, at umaasang

maiiwasan ba
ang bawat sandaling ika'y laman ng isip ko
(maiiwasan bang)
ngayo'y lilipas ng hindi kita nasisilayan
(magkamali sa'yo)
nararapat bang pigilan ang damdamin na
(maiiwasan bang)
lalong mahulog sa iyo

hindi padadala
hinding hindi padadala
hindi padadala

Napaka gandang kanta! woohoo! haha

damn this server

The server had an error for how many days now and I'm still not sure if it's fine. I blogged yesterday but it was not saved because of the stupid server. Anyway, last saturday was the YMAD concert. Well, not a lot of people came but there were enough to fill up half of the gym. There were lots of bands and I personally think Next Face was the best of them all. :) They had their own compositions and it was nice. :) So there. Anyway, there's going to be another concert to be held at St. Scho again on Dec. 21 which is sponsored by NU. They said Spongecola is already sure and they're still choosing between Hale and Orange and Lemons. Of course, I'd go for Hale. haha Biased. But hey, Orange and Lemons is good too! :) Oh, and if they could add Sugarfree, that would be great too! haha :) So if you want to come, please do come! :)

writing

I really don't know why but lately, I've been finding refuge in writing. It's what's been helping me. It actually makes me feel relieved and it's my cure for stress and distress. Here's another poem I wrote and it may or not be connected in my life. Again, these were random thoughts and it's in Filipino. :)

Halaga

araw-araw ika'y aking nakikita
tinatanaw saan man magpunta
mukha mong nakatatak sa aking utak
tinig mong laging naririnig
na tila ba ika'y naririto lang sa aking tabi
isip kong walang ibang laman
kundi ikaw lamang
nakakatuwang isipin na mayroong
nagpapangiti sa iyong mga labi
at ang buong akala ko ay ako siya
minsan pa nga ay napatingin sakin
at nagningning ang iyong mga mata
totoo ba ang aking nakita?
nang ika'y lumapit na
ang katanungan ko'y nasagot na nga
ang mga nakita ko pala'y pawang kathang-isip
pagkat nalaman kong ang
nagbibigay kulay sa iyong buhay
at nagpapatibok ng iyong puso
ay siya at 'di ako
ano nga naman ang pumasok sa utak ko
at inisip kong ako nga ay nakita mo
ano nga naman ang halaga ko sa'yo?
mahigpit pa sana ang pagkakakapit ko sa
nararamdaman ko para sa'yo
aasa pa sanang isang araw
ako ay mamahalin mo
ngunit sabihin mo lang
at ang lahat ay pakakawalan ko
kung ito ang ikasasaya mo
masakit man ay kakayanin ko
basta't para sa'yo
pakatandaan mo lang
na ang halaga mo sa buhay ko
ay ganito:
mawala ka man at iwan ako,
ang puso ko ay mananatili sa'yo

haha! Mushy ba?! Sorry ha! hehe :) Bear with me. :)

now, I'm speaking out

This is about the 22-year old girl who was allegedly raped by 6 Americans. I really think that justice has to be done soon. This girl was abused not only physically but mentally as well. Of course, she was traumatized with what has been done to her and it will remain with her forever. Now, about the Americans...why can't they behave the way they are supposed to?! They are not in their own country, for Heaven's sake! They are just visitors here in our country. They must know how to respect our people. It's not because that they are Americans they can get out of this kind of mess. When we go to their country, we respect them and we act like visitors, because we are. But why is it that when it is their turn to go our countries (and other countries as well), they just don't behave the way they are expected to and supposed to behave. Do they think that since they are Americans, they could do whatever they can?! Oh please! Look, I am not generalizing here. It's just that, this is what I see most of the time. When I was in first year, our Social Studies teacher, Ms. Leni, told us about a similar situation. She even had this story about 2 people applying for US visa. These 2 people where being interviewed by the consul and the other one does not speak in English. The consul asked him to speak in English. But then he said that he is in the Philippines and he would speak Filipino if he wanted to. He even asked the consul as to why he needs to know how to speak English to be able to go to US while Americans need not know how to speak Filipino. See?! Do you get my point?! Yes, maybe we owe a lot to US (do we really?!) but this doesn't mean they could do anything they want to. They're not in their own territory anymore. But then, as I've said, I am NOT generalizing every American. In fact, I am still fine with the Balikatan exercises since it's also for our country. It's not bad to ask help from others. They just have to know their place.

.....

Had nothing to do and suddenly, I felt the urge to write. :) Okay, these were just random thoughts which came to my head. Doesn't mean it's connected with my life. :)

Ano ang Saysay?

Ang mga ulap
ay dumidilim at
'di alam kung ano ang gagawin
unti-unting nararamdaman
ang pagpatak ng ulan
ano ang gagawin?
tatakbo ba o
magpapabasa
habang ika'y hinihintay?
may saysay ba
itong aking ginagawa?
dahil alam ko naman
na ika'y 'di kailanman
darating
'pagkat ika'y nakasukob na
kasama siya
kaya't sabihin mo.
may saysay pa ba?

hmmm...

Ayeen, your love personality type is ESFJ

About 11% of the U.S. population possesses the combination of traits that make up this personality type.

Being an ESFJ means that loyalty is usually what counts for you. As a result, one of the first things others are likely to notice about you is how invested you are in your relationships. You're rarely a fair-weather friend. In fact, you probably manage to keep many of your important connections with others for life. This isn't very surprising when you consider that you're the kind of person who draws much of your energy from those around you. Your warm and friendly nature is another factor that keeps others with you for the long haul. Regardless of the aspect of your life, you probably find that people naturally gravitate to you.

In relationships, you're the kind who gives your heart but keeps your wits about you. As a result, you have the stuff needed to be a strong partner. Know that you're more committed than most people are to making others happy. You'd likely give away the shirt off your back if it would help someone you care about.

quizzes!

Okay, since I really have nothing to post about, I'll just answer some quizzes. :)

You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

You Are 21 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

You are a Believer

You believe in God and your chosen religion. Whether you're Christian, Muslim, Jewish, or Hindu.. Your convictions are strong and unwavering. You think your religion is the one true way, for everyone.

What's Your Religious Philosophy?

ewan!

Kailan nga kaya matatapos 'to noh?! tsss. Never mind. I know this won't end unless someone forgets her pride. And NO, it's not going to be me. I know, I feel such a hypocrite telling other people that they must forget their pride, forgive, and all those bullsh*t. It's just that I want YOU to realize what you've been doing. You have to know your weakness, your flaws. You have to pinpoint them. I know not everyone is perfect but sabi nga, never have any excuses on why you shouldn't change. And buti kasi kung ako lang, but others are getting annoyed and pissed off little by little. Anyway, it's still your decision 'cause after all, it's your life. But right now, give me time to think things over 'cause I'm still npt ready to forgive right now. I can still feel the anger inside me.

serenity prayer

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things which I cannot change. The courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the diiference. Amen.

*hope this one helps :)

illusions

Sometimes I tend to have illusions and it must stop. It just makes things harder. Damn it.

kailan pa?!

Kailan Pa
Parokya ni Edgar

Bakit tuwing ikaw ay nakikita
Lumulundag ang aking puso?
Kapag ang tinig mo nama'y naririnig
Tahimik ang buong daigdig

Bawat gabi, mag-isa akong nag-iisip
Sana ay kapiling ka
Balak ko sana'y sabihing ko na
Ang aking nadarama

Kailan pa ito magagawa?
Kailan pagbibigyan ng tadhana?
Bukas ba o sa makalawa?
Kung hindi ngayon kailan pa?

Minsan tayo'y naiwan
Walang ibang kasama
Ngunit nang ikaw ay kaharap ko na
'Di ko masabing mahal kita

Kailan pa ito magagawa?
Kailan pagbibigyan ng tadhana?
Bukas ba o sa makalawa?
Kung hindi ngayon kailan pa?

why am i happy?!

I don't get it. Why am I happy?! And nothing, not even the grade I got in my Geom periodical, not even seeing my three bulates, not even the fight I am in now, not even the anger I feel, can seem to ruin my day. And I wonder why. Why?! Sabihin niyo nga, dapat ko ba 'tong ikatuwa o ikabahala?! Normal pa ba akong tao?! Ba'y kaya ako masaya?! Nang walang dahilan?! Malabo pero ayos. haha :)

numbers and i

We just don't have this connection. We just can't seem to communicate well with each other. We just hate, loathe, abhore each other. And no, we can NEVER be friends. Ever since I was in grade 1, no-in summer classes, we never got along with each other. Well, maybe for one year, which was in Alpha where I became Best in Math and Science. How could that possible be?! Me?! Best in Math and Science?! These 2 subjects which I hate the most?! WTH?! Anyway, I wonder why other people are just so good in Math and are gifted enough to be able to solve those horrifying problems. I mean, don;t you just get terrified just seeing those numbers and variables and signs and all those things?! Like, [-(7a-b)-(a+5b)]-[2(a+1/2ab)+3(7a-5/3b)]. See?! Just by looking at it, you just it's impossible. I find people who are good in Math and who actually likes Math abnormal. haha (oh, sorry Mina and Jalvin! haha) But then, I guess it's okay since it means above normal. haha

Phil of the Future!

Don't you just love this?! Not only because Ricky Ullman's there (but that's 50% of it). haha But because of Keely and Phil! They're so cute together aren't they?! haha :) I really like watching this one because of them. haha Anyway, I envy those Singaporeans who got to go out with Ricky. I mean, they get to spend the whole daw with him, with Ricky Ullman! How lucky can they get?!

Ymad kick-off concert

Once again, I'm inviting all of you to please come and join the Ymad kick-off concert to be held at St. Scholastica's College-Westgrove from 4 pm and will last 'till 9 or 10 pm. :) Proceeds will go to CHILD Haus. Tickets are only 50 pesos and if you want one, you can approach me. :) Tag at my cbox! :) And for more information, visit www.freewebs.com/ymadproject2005. Thanks! :)

sam, sam, sam!!!

Bakit ba ang daming may pangalan na Sam at sila'y gwapo?! haha Sam Concepcion, Sam Milby... haha Wala lang! I was just wondering. haha Gosh, Sam Concepcion is soooo cute!! Alam ko 12 yrs. old lang siya at napaka-cradle snatcher ng dating ko...pero, waaaa! Gwapo talaga! haha Sam Milby, need I say more?! haha Hottie! :) Oh yeah, they both sing well too! hihihi :) From now on, I love the name SAM. haha

disappointment..

Man, wasn't able to see him. Or I think I did. Not sure. Kasi I think it was him pero I was not sure kasi malayo eh. Waaaaa! Disappointment. tsk tsk

bakit ba ganun?!

Waaaa! Bakit ba ganun?! Akala ko wala na, meron pa pala. Sh*t! Ano ba 'to?! I seriously thought tapos na, hindi pa pala. I still feel stinged everytime. I don't know why. Bakit nga ba Ayeen?! Maybe because I know that well, ** had this thing for *** and it kind of makes me feel that ** might still have you know, the thing. But I kinda notice that *** still has the thing. And yeah, it stings 'coz I know that ** would never ever have this thing for **. haha Why am I laughing?! wth?! Anyway, walang kwentang entry 'to at alam kong 'di niyo maiintindihan. haha Whatever.

my duty is to my heart...

Yeah, got that from Mulan 2! haha It was nice! Mushu was so funny when he pretended to be the Dragon of Unity. haha When he wed Shang and Mulan, he was so in a hurry that he answered his own question. He was like "Mulan do you love Shang? Oh of course you do! Now Shang, do you love Mulan? Yes, very much!" haha I was laughing so hard. haha But yes, it had one great lesson...That one's duty is to his own heart. :)

please support!

Please support the YMAD Kick-off concert to be held on Nov. 12 at St. Scholastica's College-Westgrove. Tickets are only 50 pesos. :) All proceeds would go to the CHILD Haus. It's where the kids with cancer are. C'mon let's help them! :) Ayt?! :)

wait or go?!

Guess I should go. As the song goes, "I've been waiting for so long..." right?! RIGHT?! Please tell me I'm right. haha But on second thought, I could wait. haha I've noticed something. Is it just me or do you also think that someone's still waiting too?! I mean, I could sense it. haha How? I just have my common sense. haha Man, 'di mo na kailangan maging manghuhula for you to know. It's kinda obvious. haha :)

tulog na...

Tulog Na
Sugarfree

tulog na mahal ko
hayaan na muna natin ang mundong ito
lika na, tulog na tayo.
tulog na mahal ko
wag kang lumuha, malambot ang iyong kama
saka na mamroblema

tulog na hayaan na muna natin sila
mamaya, hindi ka na nila kaya pang saktan
kung matulog, matulog ka na…

tulog na mahal ko
nandito lang akong bahala sa iyo
sige na, tulog na muna
tulog na mahal ko
at baka bukas ngingiti ka sa wakas
at sabay natin haharapin ang mundo

tulog na hayaan na muna natin sila
mamaya, hindi ka na nila kaya pang saktan
kung matulog, matulog ka na…


Kanta ko 'yan para sa sarili ko. haha Pero if ever may kumanta sa'kin niyan, kami na. haha :)

well...

Our pc's fixed! Yipee! :) It had problems with the AVR pala. Anyway, I'm still not that okay. I mean, how can I be?! Ewan ko ba. It seems na she still hasn't noticed what she's been doing. But hey, maybe pakiramdam niya wala talaga siyang ginagawa. Then fine. Wow, the best way to ruin a friendship. Sheesh! Or was it ever a friendship?! Now I'm starting to wonder. Sa totoo lang, I've done things for her in case she doesn't know. Hindi ko naman binibilang. It's just that parang lahat 'yun wala lang. Some people really just take things for granted. Amazing! *sarcasm* I asked Karel to predict how long will I ignore her. She said a month. But I think that's too short. Last time I had this fight (with Mela 2 years back), I ignored her for like 4 or more months. See?! Ako pa?! Matigas to noh. Patigasan tayo?! No problem. Magaling ako diyan. Kaya kong mantiis ng tao if that's what it takes. But yeah, I am NOT okay. Stressed on NOT. Not to mention my birthday and Christmas is just around the corner. What a nice way to celebrate. But on the brighter side, I've realized that...why would I be wasting my time on people who doesn't deserve my time?! People who don't respect me don't deserve my respect too. Mean as it is but true. Basta! Just get my point. But, I'm more okay than last week. :)

lots of things to do!

Oh my gosh! I haven't started with all my schoolworks! Darn it! I still have my ELA speech and julius ceasar thing. Oh yeah, the Filipino project!!! MELA!!! WHAT ARE WE GOING TO DO?! *panic* Damn it! Need to start now!