crush-a-holic

I saw him today! He had a hair cut. And he's handsome like he's never been handsome before. haha Seriously, he looks better. His face is more seen. It's like he glows. Glow-in-the-dark. My heart skipped. It's him this time. And yes, I saw him smile.

Nagtataka lang ako, bakit ba pag may crush ka, 'yung taong gusto mo, stand out palagi? DUH. Because he's your crush. But no, other than that, it's like when he's in a crowd, he has a spotlight on him and everyone and everything around him is nothing but a mere background. It's like he's different. He's not like the other people you see. You can't explain it. I can't explain it either and I won't try to explain it more. But I know you know what I'm saying. It's like drugs. You get happy, like you're on cloud 9. You get high. He's like drugs, you can't get anough of him. He's like an alien, you can't stop staring at him; he's differnt from everyone else.

God, it's so much fun to have a crush. Simple admiration. Simple pleasures. A simple look would make you smile. So much more fun than love. haha Love is a whole different story.

hmmm...

Your Birth Month is November

Tolerant and inspirational, you are wise beyond your years. You are universally sympathetic and a great humanitarian. Your soul reflects: Compassion, friendship, and secret love Your gemstone: Citrine Your flower: Chrysanthemum Your colors: Dark blue, red, and yellow

What Does Your Birth Month Mean?

How You Are In Love

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time. You give completely and unconditionally in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

"You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard." haha Let's laugh. Ang sarap tumawa! Heto pa: "Your sould reflects: compassion, friendship and secret love." woohoo!

I find these things interesting. They're most, if not all of the time, true. I was amazed when I got these reuslts. haha

sweet!

I read this article contributed by a guy in The Philippine Daily Inquirer and it's where he proposed to his girl. It's soooo nakakakilig! I swear. I was telling everyone to read it. And I'm telling you to read it too. But if you don't have the newspaper, just go here: young cassanova I swear it's worth reading. I won't post it here because it's too long and it's copyrighted. haha

I wish someday, that kind of thing will happen to me too. Sabi nga ni Ms. Jane, kahit daw sa billboard lang sa EDSA pwede na. Yuck, Ayeen, 'wag kang ambisyosa! haha

SONA

Pres. Gloria Macapagal Arroyo had her SONA today. I watched and listened to it and it seemed impressive. I was impressed with what she wanted to do for the Philippines. Of course, her plans were mainly for our progress and it's good that our government wants to have prosperity. Oh and by the way, she had 157 claps. And she was too excited to deliver her speech she almost forgot about the national anthem.

In line with this, I just had a heated discussion with Betsy's aunt. haha At first I thought it was Betsy since she was using Betsy's ym id. It started with a group message where I said: " salamat sa mga gus2ng ipagawang mga highway ni gma, pwede na tayo umabot ng mindanao ng nagcocommute lang. hahahaha woohoo"

Betsy's aunt: why not? It's being done now. If you read the Phil Star - articles by Claude Tayag, he related his travel from Manila to Mindanao (using the Southern Tagalog route) Batangas/Mindoro/Caticlan in Visayas, etc. etc

Ayeen: kaya nga
Ayeen: duh
Ayeen: haha kaya nga ayos un
Ayeen: d ko nmn cnbi na d un mggwa

Betsy's aunt: But with your hahahaha woohoo, you meant something, right?

Ayeen:1 nope. i was simply amazed since everyone thought that would be too impossible
Ayeen: i mean..do we have funds for that? will it fit? how much money will we waste

Betsy's aunt: It's now being done. There's no need to build bridges to connect all the islands. There are many inter island ships that ply our seas. I am not Betsy. I am her guardian "aunt"

Ayeen: oh. haha yeah. but in her sona, what she said was about the inter connecting highways..not merely travel by sea

Betsy's aunt: That maybe between some islands, because the "bridge" from Batangas to Mindoro has been suggested/studied in the past and nothing came of it. But who knows???? If heavy metals like airplanes and ships can fly/float, why not verrrrrrry long bridges?

Ayeen: bridges cannot float nor can they fly. they can exist yes...but what im trying to say is that, yes these are possible but how much money will we spend building these? we are not a rich country and yet we spend money with these things?

Betsy's aunt: I would say we have money, but how and where we spend the "money' is the problem.

Ayeen: we have money..but it isnt enough. thats my point. and instead of spending our money with these bridges connecting the whole philippines together, why not spend it on education or

Betsy's aunt: I am 52 years old. I studied in a public elementary school, private Catholic school and a state college. We learned English from Grade 1 (no nursery, no prep, no kindergarten). Education has deteriorated because of the change in the system. In grade I, we were taught 3 subjects (Reading {in Pilipino and English}, Writing and Aritmetic) with Religion and Music/PE at least once a week. We mastered everthing, anyone in my class (from the brightest to the "least endowed" can write an essay better than most of the graduates today. I had hands on experience of tutoring my son from nursery to Grade IV, and I know the difference. I once asked a classmate who is a teacher in Miriam College, "why the change?" She said, then publishers will not earn...... New books will not be required......

Ayeen: it doesnt matter if the system changes..as long as the quality of education remains the same..at a high standard. but every year..it lowers down. less children graduate. less can read and write. no funds for public schools. not enough teachers. not enough classrooms. the state of education in the country is something we should pity. something we should put our focus on instead of those bridges and highways.

And after this, I was still in heat for another debate and so I had one with, this time, Betsy herself.

Ayeen: oh well...u cant blame me can u? still about the education? its true naman, its going down and down
Ayeen: i live in our tym and we have to deal with it

Elizabeth Calapatia: yes
Elizabeth Calapatia: but we should rily blame d teachers mor
Elizabeth Calapatia: dan d wrong way of budgetng

Ayeen: nope. blame everyone of us. teachers cant do anything about it since they also live here in our country where there are no budgets and stuff
Ayeen: i mean. we can produce great teachers and great students if only we pay attention to them
Ayeen: we dont give importance to them kasi eh

Elizabeth Calapatia: that is true
Elizabeth Calapatia: we are too submissive
Elizabeth Calapatia: we cant be as competitive as the other countries
Elizabeth Calapatia: our government should think more of our country
Elizabeth Calapatia: other than impressing others

Ayeen: no..we can be as competitive..we even have far better skills than they have. we just dont hone it

Elizabeth Calapatia: yea...
Elizabeth Calapatia: d not enough dicpline
Elizabeth Calapatia: n most of us barely care
Elizabeth Calapatia: most just want a quick buck for the day
Elizabeth Calapatia: dey just waste the talents they have
Elizabeth Calapatia: n the government is jst too damn corrupt to even care

Ayeen: we cant also blame them. they have no outlet for it. the government does not support them. but then again...we cant blame the government. there are far mor important things too. our government is corrupt. but every government is corrupt. no country has a clean government. believe me. they just know where to put their corruption. and we are to blame. those people help their country and we dont. we ask what the gov can do for us and not what we can do for it.

Then I ate. haha

pro or anti?

Am I pro or anti Arroyo? Neither. I can praise her and criticize her anytime I want. Praise her when she does something worth praising and criticize her when she does something worth criticizing. I must say though, that she has a strong government. As I've heard in the news, she has detractors from the opposition, military, civilian and even in the CBCP. But here she is, still standing. With such a big smile on her face. Small but terrible. I admire her for that.

alam ng puso

Yes, the heart knows. The heart knows who to beat for. See, I went to church awhile ago and I saw anonymous-or so I thought. I mistook one guy with him. This guy looks like him. He's white, with a hint of chinito eyes, has the same hair and serves in mass too. He's also handsome, mind you. I've always mistaken him for anonymous, ever since last year. I saw him awhile ago and I thought he was my anonymous. And I was wondering because when I saw him, my heart didn't leap, it didn't even skip. It wasn't beating fast. My sleepyness didn't go away. This just doesn't happen when it's really my crush I see.

My heart beats as if a hundred bulls are out to get me. It leaps as if it was my first time to. I become happy like I've never been happy. But it wasn't like that. I was wondering if my admiration for this person suddenly stopped. All of sudden? I knew it was impossible. Man, I've had crushes who became my crushes for what, 3 years? And yes, I didn't want my infatuation for him to wane. I want it to stay. Yes, pathetic little me. Anyway, so I was thinking what happened to my admiration. When we went out of church, I saw him going inside this trycicle, something anonymous does every week. And I was worried because still, my heart wasn't beating any faster. But when I got close, no it wasn't him. Thank God. haha I mean, I still have doubts until now if it was him or not, something I've been doing when I see this guy.

See, I trust my heart. (Naks! Crush pa lang 'yan. haha) It certainly knows who to beat for. Even though my mind and my eyes deceive me, my heart doesn't. Even if this guy looked like anonymous, served in mass, stood at the back of the church and rode the tricycle, I know it wasn't him. Simply because my heart didn't beat for him the way it does with anonymous.

Teen Commandments

This one came from Pinoy Big Brother Teen Edition and I thought it was nice.

ME, MYSELF AT AKO…
MAMAHALIN KO ANG SARILI KO
IPAPAKITA ANG TUNAY NA AKO
DI LANG PURO GIMIK, TEXT AT JAPORMS ANG IISIPIN
MASKI SA SCHOOL AT BAHAY, LAGI AKONG SISIPAGIN
HINDI AKO MALULULON SA MASAMANG BISYO
DI KO TRIP BUMARKADA SA MGA LOKO LOKO
BUKAS ANG LOOB SA ANUMANG PWEDENG MATUTUNAN
FOCUS NG BUHAY KO ANG MAAYOS NA KINABUKASAN

KAPAMILYA KO, KABARKADA KO
MAMAHALIN KO ANG AKING PAMILYA
UUNAWAIN AT KIKILALANIN KUNG SINO SILA
DI HUHUSGAHAN ANG PAGKAKAMALI NINA NANAY AT TATAY
AYOKONG MAGING PASAWAY
MAGIGING RESPONSABLENG KAPATID KINA BRO AT SIS
PAGTULONG SA BAHAY, DI AKO MAIINIS
ANUMAN ANG MARATING KO SA BUHAY
BAWAT TAGUMPAY, SA KANILA KO IAAALAY

HEYA WORLD! PINOY AKO!
MAMAHALIN KO ANG BANSANG PILIPINAS
SUSUNOD AKO SA LAHAT NG BATAS
TATANGKILIKIN ANG MGA PRODUKTONG SARILING ATIN
GAWANG NOYPI, IN NA IN SA AKIN
AALAGAAN KO ANG AKING PALIGID
SA MGA KAPWA PILIPINO, DI MAGIGING MANHID
SAANG LUPALOP MAN SA MUNDO AKO MAPUNTA
PINOY PA RIN AKO, WALA NG IBA!

GUDTAYM IS GODTAYM
MAMAHALIN KO ANG PANGINOONG DIYOS
ISASAPUSO KO LAHAT NG KANIYANG UTOS
LAGI AKONG MAGDARASAL
IBABAHAGI SA IBA ANG KANIYANG PAG-IBIG AT ARAL
HINDI KO MAKAKALIMUTAN ANG MAGPASALAMAT
SA KANIYA, AKO AY MAGIGING KARAPAT-DAPAT
WALA NANG MAS HIP AT COOL PA SA KANIYA
SA BUHAY KO, SIYA ANG IDOL NA PALAGING BIDA!

KABATAANG PINOY AKO SA ISIP, SALITA AT GAWA
SA BAHAY NI KUYA, AKO AY MAGSISIMULA
ISASABUHAY KO ANG TEEN COMMANDMENTS NA ITO
PARA KAY BIG BRO AT SA MGA KABATAANG TULAD KO

Sorry kung all-caps. Tinamad akonng mag-edit. haha

leadership training

We had our leadership training last Thursday and it was hell of fun! We had different activities. First one was building the strongest and tallest tower. Our group's tower stood up even when it was fanned but because the scotch tape wasn't enough, it couldn't hold one leg of it and it fell. The winner was group 5. Theirs wasn't that tall. It was less than half of our tower but it was strong. Then, we also had this shoe game. We formed a circle and took of our shoes and threw it at the middle. The teachers messed them all up! We had to get them as fast as we could. I swear that was a stampede right there! 1 Then we had the Malong game. Well, it was supposed to be with the malong but since we didn't have one, we changed the mechanics. 3 representatives from each group had to go at the stage with the curtains closed. We were asked to give our shoes, socks, jewelries, shirt, pants and underwear (bra only). Yes, even our bras. There was a corresponding price for each item. Bras cost 1 million pesos each. After that, we would use our money to bid on things we were going to use for some art thing. We had the lowest money. Haha Group 6 had the most. They had 6 million after.

If you were wondering, no, I didn't give my bra. Although I was tempted to. haha

oh my

Something happened last leadership training. Nakakahiya. They were shouting as if I couldn't hear them. Oh please. I have ears you know! You know who you are. I think. If you think that I already feel what you are trying to make me feel, then you know I'm talking about you. Why do you need to make it vulgar anyway? But no, I am not mad. haha

Naiilang ako at ayokong may kinaiilangan ako. At nararamdaman ko rin na may naiilang sa akin at ayoko rin naman na kinaiilangan ako ng iba. tsk tsk. Nakakainis. Lagi akong nakayuko o kaya naka side view. Kawawa naman 'yung ulo ko. Feeling ko magkaka stiff neck na ko eh. Ayoko ng ganun kaso wala eh, nakakailang na talaga. Hindi ko na kaya tumingin ng diretso. Nakakahiya talaga. Feeling ko nga nararamdaman na nun na nararamdaman ko na 'yun. Basta. Tae. (sorry sa word. hehe)

oh, life

Do you know if someone is making noise? Do you know the difference of someone who is making noise than someone who just talking? I don't think 3 people do. People were reprimanded awhile ago because they were said to be noisy. The other people who were called, yes, I do believe they were noisy. But Mina and Mikee? That, my friends, I don't believe in. WHO THE HELL BELIEVES THAT ANYWAY? I know for a fact that Mina wasn't noisy the other week. She had cough and everyone knows that she doesn't talk if she has cough. The problem with the rules committe is that they do not see what they're supposed to see. I know who they are and I must say that one of them should even write her own name down. She's the one who's always reprimanded in class. Biased person. Just because you're rules committee doesn't mean you're exempted. You guys are simply unbelievable!

I was shocked when I learned I wasn't listed. Mina, Sceiy, Chai, Vianne and Mikee were the only ones reprimanded and they're my Media Ed. groupmates. I wasn't the only one listed. I was even noisier than Mina! If they thought about listing Mina down, they should've thought of listing me down first! And for you, rules committee people, make sure that what you write down on the paper you pass to Ms. Kathy is true. Because right now, what I see is that you only put the names of those people you want to put. Hey, I know a lot of people noisier than Mina and Mikee, me included. Why not put me? Sheesh.

here we go again

I didn't want the English campaign, they did. And I believe I have enough reason to justify why we don't need it. As I have said, we don't even know Filipino yet. We don't even know our own language. Bakit ko naman babayaran ang pagtatagalog ko eh ito naman ang ating wika? Pagmumultahin mo ako para magsalita ng banyagang wika? Ni hindi ko pa nga kilala ang sarili kong wika.

Para tayong mga Amerikano. Nakakahiya. Sinasabi natin na sila, na mga Amerikano mismo, hindi marunong ng salitang Ingles. Pinagtatawanan pa nga natin sila 'di ba? Biruin mo, Amerikano, 'di marunong mag-ingles! Parang tayo, biruin mo, Pilipino, hindi marunong ng tamang Tagalog! Hindi na tayo nahiya sa balat natin. Pati ba naman ito kokopyahin rin natin sa mga Kano? Hindi pa ba sapat na mas magaling at mas pinagtutuunan ng pansin ang asignaturang Ingles sa eskwela kaysa sa Filipino? Eh anak naman ng tyanak, isipin niyo ngang mabuti kung saan talaga tayo mas magaling?

Eh mas tama pa nga nating nasasabi na "I am eating fish" kaysa sa "Nakain ako ng isda." Nakain ng isda? Kasya na pala tayo sa isda. Simpleng pangungusap pa nga lang hindi na natin masabi ng tama eh. Ano ba tayo? Malalansang isda? Hindi niyo kasi naiisip ang ganito. Hindi naman porke't na sa Pilipinas tayo at nagsasalita ng Tagalog eh mas magaling na tayo mag Tagalog kaysa mag Ingles.

Naaawa ako sa atin. Lagi na lang kasi nating iniisip ang mga banyagang bagay. Banyagang pananamit, pagkain, kaugalian, wika. Para ano? Para ma-impress sa atin ang mga banyaga? Uy! Ang galing ng mga Pilipino mag Ingles! Pero bano sa pagtatagalog. Wow, kamangha-mangha kasi ang ganito.

no courtesy but happy

I read in the newspaper that Reader's Digest did an experiment to find out which countries do well in common courtesy (eg. opening the door for someone, please and thank you..etc), meaning, as Reader's Digest put it, "how helpful and polite people are around the world." They also tested which countries are the happiest which "measures quality of life against environmental impact." The Philippines was one of the lowest in ranking when it came to having common courtesy but, on the other hand, was one of the highest in ranking when it came to being happy.

Are we Filipinos really THAT impolite? Don't even deny it. Maybe we are. How many of us say please when we ask a waiter to serve us something? How many of us say thank you when that counter lady and bagger guy give us our things after we've bought it? Or how many of us greet that manong guard who stands all day in that mall opening and closing the door for us? I've experienced being bumped by people in malls without even saying excuse me or sorry. Is it really that hard? C'mon! These are simple words taught to us when we were still kids. Maybe these are even the most important words ever taught to us in this life. And why is it that we're always grumpy? I read something from Tuesdays With Morrie. What if this driver took over your car? What would you do? Would you stick that finger out? What if instead of sticking out that finger and saying that f word, you smiled and said hello instead? Wouldn't that be better?

On the other hand, we're one of the happiest people on Earth. Actually, those in the so-called third world countries and other Asian countries ranked high compared to USA, Canda, Japan and France, the so-called rich countries. They said that this was due to the fact that we are contented with what we have, not like those rich countries. I guess it's right. We don't need to ask for more because most of the time, there's no "more." We only have enough. And we can do with what is in front of us. We're creative. And the best thing about us? We can have problems and still laugh about it. That's why we look young and good! Look at those people in rich countries (no offense meant), they always look grumpy! They're brows are always together. Worrying what they worry about the most. Money. They're rich and they worry about money. haha So ironic. Let's keep it like this. Let's not worry to much. Let's enjoy what we have. We don't want to look old, do we?

Although it is ironic to be grumpy and happy at the same time. But as Gino de la Paz said in his article in The Philippine Daily Inquirer, "being polite-or even being happy-isn't something we aim for because a couple of surveys said we should be so. Rather, being courteous is important becaiuse, plain and simple, it's the right thing to do."

pain

I realized how we couldn't describe pain as much as we couldn't describe love. No words can exactly describe the pain, the hurt, which we feel inside. No matter how we try to put it into words, it just won't be enough. Even if two people are pained by the same thing, like losing someone, the pain will still not be the same for those people. No matter how alike we are with our reasons why we are in pain, the hurt which we feel will NEVER be alike. It's like even when we fall at the same time, get bruised at the same time and have the same size of bruise, bleed with the same amount of blood and scrape our knees at the same depth, we still won't have the same pain. The pain that we feel will only be for ourselves.

When you get hurt, a lot of people would say, "I know what you feel." But the truth is, what they only know is that you're in pain, but they do not know how much pain you feel. You can never say that you can feel the pain which other people feel. We have different experiences, different emotions, different personalities and different hearts. If two people broke up with their loved one, with the same reason, you would think they feel the same thing. But what if the other one is more resilient than the other? What if the other person have had gone through what she is going through right now? Would they still feel the same pain?

Yes, I know, I'm becoming too redundant. But, isn't it true? No one will ever feel the same kind of pain because we all have different experiences, emotions, personalities. Our hearts will never be the same in feeling what we feel.

grabeh

Grabe talaga! I told Karel about what I feel na rin. You know, my vibrations. WTF?! She kept on laughing! So now, Mela and Karel are ganging up on me everyday. They're always teasing me. Hay nako! Si Mela lalo, she does nothing but tease me. Awhile ago in Computer class, when we were typing HTML codes, she was giving meaning to everything I did! Is it a crime mistyping my u with another letter close to it?! tsk tsk. Talaga naman! And they can't help but look at that person. Nakakahiya. haha Pero nakakatawa. Kahit ako tumatawa. Pero who knows, I might be wrong with my stupid vibrations. 'Di naman ako manghuhula. haha Oh well. Pahiya na lang tayo 'pag mali nga. haha

I was laughing when Karel said I was melting na. Like cheese. haha But I don't really get it. Is it because that person keeps on looking? haha Whatever. I don't know eh. Tell me. haha

campus tour

We're going to UST, DLSU and ADMU tomorrow. We'll pass our ADMU forms and get UST and DLSU forms (they'll get UST, I won't). Mag-cocommute lang kami. haha Hmmm..pano ako uuwi? Ewan ko. I was supposed to go with Nard but then he said, if something happens (information witheld. Arte kasi), he'll leave me. WTF! Stupid moron! haha Hay nako, he MUST text me ASAP if that stupid thing happens. Tae kasi. Sana 'di mo na lang sinabi na pwede ako sumabay sa'yo pagkatapos babawiin mo. Amf. Bahala ka.

nonsense

I've been putting senseless things here on my blog lately. My current posts are, well, my daily ramblings. I'll post more senseful (huh? senseful? haha) posts the next time. I'm not myself lately. I am but I'm not. Labo. haha

haaay

If a bird fell in love with a fish, where would they live? Who keeps the fins and who loses its wings? It's an irony. But that's how cruel yet poetic love can be.

Love. Again. Everyone's favorite topic. It's what everyone is talking about. The talk of the town. It's what's in every year. It's not a fad. Some people hate it, some people love it. But no one can avoid it. Everyone goes through it. It brings joy, it brings pain. But it certainly wouldn't go away. Live it. Love it.

I told Mela that the most stupid thing you can do is to deny to yourself the fact that you like someone even if you know for a fact that you do. I also kept on telling people who ask me for advice that they should tell what they feel for someone. Hypocrite. I'm such a hypocrite when it comes to these thngs.

I guess some things will just be kept hidden. Even if it's already done. I don't know if it's right. If I didn't keep it, would everything be different? I wonder. But right now, I really don't care anymore. And thank God for that.

sh*t

It's so sh*tty. I'm not dense you know. It's annoying and it's getting more annoying by the minute. WTF?!

haha

I tripped myself today! Me so proud!

haha It happened while I was going up the stairs. I was teasing Mela. I wasn't looking at the steps. I thought there was one step left but no, there were 2 more. But I made a big step that's why my foot got sabit and I almost made subsob. Good thing I made tukod. Kung hindi, subsob 'yung mukha ko. haha

disturbing

Very, very disturbing. You know when you feel someone is making epal? You know when you feel like someone likes you? You don't want to be mayabang but you can just feel it. And I can feel it. Damn. NO WAY. WTF?! It's not good. SHIT. You might find it good, but if you just know who and if you know...never mind! Basta! It's not likeable!

my girl marathon

Watched My Girl 4 hours straight (8 pm - 12 am) last Friday and more than 12 hours (9 am-11.30 pm) yesterday. O strained my eyes. But I don't care. It's worth it. It was kilig! But I think some parts were more kilig when they dubbed it in tagalog. Like the one were Gong Chan was in front of the elevator and he kept on looking at Yoo Rin's picture in his phone, in Tagalog, it was dubbed as "aalis ka? 'di ko kaya." but in korean, it was "i can't let you go. i can let you go. i don't want to let you go." Wala lang, it's like you can feel something more in the tagalog line. And that is why I'll watch it in tv still. haha It's really nice. It gets dramatic at the end. Oh yeah, the girl in Sassy Girl Chun Hyang and her partner was there too. It was like it was a continuation or something. Weird. haha

jen jil net o?

We went to Ell's house. We were supposed to practice for the PE dance thing. But we didn't do anything. We took pictures of ourselves, watched dvd, played hangman, tried the yiga thing, and ate spicy (very spicy!) noodles! It was so spicy that it made me cry! I swear! I only ate half a bowl of the noodles, half the burger and 3 glasses of water. I was full because of the water. haha I swear I was crying na! Oh yeah, Ell taught me how to speak Korean! It's a preparation when we go to Korea. haha Karel and I really want to go there! Seriously! We even planned that we would go there this summer after graduation. Should I make it my gard gift? hmmm. Seriously, I really really want to go there. I'm curious about it eh.

pictures!




Ell tong and Ayeen tong! hehe



in Ell's house awhile ago

Only 2 for now. I have to resize the others. haha They're too big.

MIA

AGAIN! Can you believe it?! He's not there again! damn.

super stress

This week is nothing but stress week. I feel so tired! It's been so busy. The lessons are hard, there are activities for almost every subject and there are seatworks and quizzes which are sometimes surprise ones. Tomorrow there will be the sabayang pagbigkas for Filipino. We will also have quizzes in Health and Computer. Karel and I still don't have topics for our Physics IP. I'm far from done with my Mathfolio. We still don't have the freaking dance for PE. I'm not yet done with my modern art thinng and the essay which explains my work. God, I have a lot to do! It's very very stressful!

i hate love

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life. You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”

Got this one from a site which I forgot. I found it nice. And its' true. Why is it that when you fall in love, you fall in love with one stupid person who's no different from any other stupid person. But yes, your heart suddenly beats faster, you trip, then you fall. Then suddenly, this stupid person is for you, no longer a stupid person. He's suddenly this someone who seems so intelligent who does no wrong. He suddenly becomes perfect. And yes, if your stupid heart doesn't stop beating but his freaking heart just tells him that you're only another stupid person for him, then you get that one of a kind pain which you feel in your heart. Then you blame your stupid heart for falling for him. But see, nothing happens. Your damn heart continues to fall and you can't do anything about it. Until the time comes that your heart gets tired. Damn love. You just got to hate love.

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Sana nagtanong ka lang
Kung 'di mo lang alam
Sana'y nagtanong ka lang
Kung 'di mo lang alam
Ako'y iyong nasaktan
Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman
Hindi mo lang alam

Ooooh. Nice song. Para sa mga manhid. haha tsk tsk. 'Di mo lang alam ako'y iyong nasaktan. Sana'y nagtanong ka lang. Sa bagay, manhid nga eh, walang pakialam. May mga tao talagang sadyang manhid na kahit anong pahalata mo, wala pa rin. Minsan nga nakapagtataka, manhid ba talaga o sadyang ayaw lang tingnan? Bato. Bato ka kasi. haha

updates!!

So my pc got corrupted that's why I wasn't able to update. A bunch of things happened since Esmie's debut. Let's see...last Saturday was Esmie's debut and of course, we attended. The party was supposed to start at 7 pm but was delayed for an hour. We were one of the first people who were there. To our surprise, the other guests were just wearing casual clothes. Darn it! They were in jeans and shirt while we were wearing stupid dresses! It's a good thing those is the 18 butterflies were also wearing semi formal dresses or we could have died in humiliation. And I could have killed Esmie. She was the one who told us to wear the semi formal thing you know. haha Then came the 18 butterflies, 18 tulips, dinner, 18 gifts and the dancing thing. Cute guys? Nah. None. Nada. haha Well, there was one, Esmie's escort but I feel like he's so full of himself. haha I don't know. He's okay. We went home at 12 because we weren't doing anything anymore.

Mela and Karel slept over at our house. So funny. Karel didn't want to go to sleep because it was dark and she was scared that elements would come out of nowhere. She wanted to turn on the light but Mela wanted it to be dark. They were arguing pa nga eh. haha Then, the next day came and we were all so excited to go to mass. Gosh, I feel like we only went to mass to see anonymous. haha Bad! Of course, I prayed naman because I couldn't see him at first. (And that's what happens every time naman eh) Until communion came and there he was in his maroon shirt and black jacket. We were both wearing maroon! Talk about destiny! haha Same shade! Anyway, I swear I was googly eyed. haha I'm so happy that they were able to see him. At least they know I'm not imagining things. They said he's cute but not their type. See?! He's cute! haha

I got my phone last Sunday too. Yay! New phone! I found out something pa nga eh. My 3200 was given to me last June 25, 2004 and my new phone was given to me last June 25, 2006. Which means that my 3200 lasted exactly 2 years. Astig! Gave my old phone to my dad. hehe

Watched High School Musical last Sunday. Cool! I was so hooked up and I got hang over after! I got kilig with Troy and Gabriella! haha sings..."it's hard to believe that i couldn't see taht you were always there beside me. thought i was alone with no one to hold, but you were always there beside me. this feeling's like no other. i want you to know that i never found someone who knows me like you do, the way you do. and i never found someone who's good for me as you, no one like you..." I'm going to watch again later! Addict!

Oh yeah, became the editor-in-chief of the Blue Post. Weird. I wasn't expecting it. Really. It's just my first year with the Writer's Guild and I suddenly became the editor-in-chief?! I thought it was either Biney or Mina. Hmmm...oh well, I chose that over class office. I don't know why. I like to try something new and it's something I like. I so thank Ms. Kathy and Sir Gene.

yay manny!

Manny Pacquiao won against Larios! Everyone was predicting that that would happen. If you watched the fight, Larios was strong, yes, but he couldn't match up with Manny. He fell twice, got 3 cuts in his face and he was bleeding. Although I admire him for being a good fighter because he stood up until round 12. Erik Morales fell down at the 10th round the last time he fought with Manny. Anyway, Manny's the man! Oh yeah, did you notice his shoes? It had this banderitas sort of thing. haha Funny.

MIA

Anonymous is MIA today. Yeah, he's missing in action. awww Maybe next week? I hope.